My Pinched Neck #abuse #heartbroken #lorijeanfinnila #domesticviolence

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I’m feeling heart broken over an injury in my neck my husband gave me when I was, so, so, many years ago. Pictures of X-rays and knowing the truth of what I went through I can’t ignore anymore. The injuries come to me in physical feelings and ailments I can’t ignore. I don’t know what I did to make my ex-husband be so unkind to me. I did everything for him. Pleased every wish he wanted. To handle me that way…. Picking me up with 2 hands by my neck and landing me on the bed after I questioned where he was for so long anxious at the fact he would come home so late after dinner. I was home and alone then a lot because he didn’t want me working at a hospital that I was working at. I worked so hard to get the job and was so proud of myself. I was only 20 and hadn’t had any work success. It was only part time but still 30 hours and a wonderful stepping stone to a full time job with good money and benefits. I was already making more than twice an hour from my last job. I now feel the long term effects of an injury that connects my neck to my brain stem: fighting off dysautonomia and other related conditions that come so ma y years later. No one has to tell me. I’m smart. I watch, I listen, I hear. I research. We know deep down inside of us, this is us. The cracking in my neck I’ll never forget, as my brain faded away…. on that day. Into waitressing, druggings, attempted human trafficking, more abuse, after abuse, after abuse… what did I do? I may as well face, this is what they do to you during domestic violence. :(

Rice Can Be Our Friend #rice #healing #chronicpesticidetoxicity #lorijeanfinnila #poisoned #abuse

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I ate rice boiled in a lot of extra water and rinsed it well because I was desperate for a gluten free grain. I won't ordinarily eat rice due to permanent chronic pesticide toxicity that I feel I have from being poisoned through food. I felt such a relief in my body healthwise. I had to think about this. Please look for information below that I researched.

Also when I eat pickles I feel the same sense of relief.

I'm hoping this helps other women who have been poisoned.

Credits:

Components in rice—particularly in the bran and germ—mitigate chronic pesticide poisoning primarily through antioxidant action, detoxification support, and chemical adsorption. These bioactive agents help the body clear free radicals, reduce oxidative stress, and manage systemic inflammation. (National Institute of Health.gov)

Antioxidant Peptides: Short chains of amino acids (like those derived from fermented rice) reduce oxidative stress by promoting the activation of NRF2, which stimulates the body's natural antioxidant defenses and clears lipid oxidation products. (National Institute of Health.gov)

My Dirty Wedding Dress #abuse #lorijeanfinnila #takingchances

 My Dirty Wedding Dress 

After I married my abusive boyfriend he gave me my supposed gifted cleaned wedding dress in a beautiful box gifted by a very nice Jewish friend of his that attended our wedding that owned a dry cleaners. The dress was filled with dirt and mud stains. I was horrified and said the dress is ruined and can’t ever be used by our children. My husband at that point laughed and never got it fixed.

These stories still bring me horror today. When you feel you can’t get away fight it. I do still believe I’d be dead if I tried to fight to leave him any sooner, but with what I’ve been through sometimes I say maybe it would have been worth the chance.

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